Our Third Wedding Anniversary

We went to the Boston Sheraton to celebrate our third wedding anniversary. We got upgraded to a nice room with a great view of the Charles River. We did some walking around Boston and ate a lot of good food.

We had a nice relaxing time, but it was tinged with sadness the entire time. This was because we were not supposed to be going away at this point. We were supposed to be at home waiting for you sweet babies to arrive. Or at the very least not being able to get away since we would be making daily trips to the NICU to see you sweet babies.

Just when I think everything is starting to get better, something reminds me of you sweet babies and I start remembering and thinking of the what ifs and I'm sad again.

It's been a wonderful 3 years but these last 6 months have been so full of ups and downs and so much tragedy and grief that it's hard to get past that.

I am forever grateful that I met Russ and for all the joy he has brought into my life. He has been my rock during these hard times, and I only hope we only have happiness from now on.